Our Beckett

 This boy.  He has challenged me (and continues to challenge me) in ways I never could have imagined.  He gives stubborn a new meaning.  When he does not get what he wants, all logic goes out the window.  He throws the most fierce temper tantrums I have ever seen and there is no such thing as re-direction.  He can outlast me every time.  Just last week, I sat in the airport holding him as he screamed and kicked and writhed in my arms. Why was he so upset?  I made him get off the shuttle when we arrived at our gate and he wanted to continue riding the shuttle around and around the airport regardless of the flight we had to catch.  Eventually the tears spilled out of my eyes as I sat wondering what everyone must be thinking and how I was going to get through this tantrum.  This was not the first time (and I'm sure not the last) I have reached and passed my wit's end while he still had plenty of tantrum left in him.   

 But this boy.  He is a lover.  He is so affectionate.  He snuggles into your chest and completely steals your heart.  Daily he doles out the most heart-felt hugs and kisses that clearly say, "I love you so very much".  I love you too Beck.  Every night at bedtime, no less than 10 night-night kisses are exchanged before he curls up with his favorite blanket and closes his eyes. 

And this boy.  He is a comedian.  He knows how to make me laugh and finds so much amusement in doing so.  From silly dances to goofy faces, he knows just what to do to get everyone smiling.  

 

In the past 15 months since we brought him home, I have come to realize that Beckett feels so deeply.  And whatever he is feeling, he does not hesitate to express it.  Yes, this can be a challenge at times, but still, I am so thankful that he trusts us enough to expose his feelings.  He has been through so much in his short life and I feel incredibly blessed that he's willing to get past the fear and let us in.  We have plenty of work to do to help him learn healthy and appropriate ways of expressing himself, but I am thankful for his fierce feeling and deep loving little heart.